Blurry Dreams

Sharing thoughts filled with uncertainty.

Head Around You

Wow, it's been a while, hasn't it? Since my last post, I've turned 16, gotten rid of whatever boyfriend I spoke of last time, and have formed some conclusions in my head. A few weeks ago, I decided I needed to focus more on school because my grades were falling way lower than I was comfortable with, so I quit my winter guard extracurricular and deleted my Facebook. I tried to pull myself away from my virtual family, with the exception of two close friends, and that worked for about a week. Apparently while I was away, a friend attempted suicide and their relationship seemed to be falling apart. I guess I should've thought of the others before pushing them away, but this proves that you can't easily rid of the people you've spent so much of your time getting to know and care for. Even though I would be perfectly satisfied with just those two close friends to speak to, well, we don't always get what we want without affecting others.

Well, I'm off for winter break now. Time passes so fast, and it hasn't clicked in my head that Christmas is just four days away...I guess it's lost its magic for me. I am hoping for a white Christmas, though, and I'm excited to see my family on the Eve. My sister will be joining us this year, which I'm happy about because she was at boot camp at this time last year.

Hmm, what else? I've succeeded in getting my grades up for the most part, I've taken a strange interest in BDSM, which upon reading Fifty Shades has boosted it, my future wife has been dating someone I don't approve of (not only because of jealousy, either), I'm starting to accept the past as something that isn't as significant as it used to be, I recently did a project on Dave Pelzer (author of A Child Called It), I read a lot more than I have been these past few years, and I think some of my real life friends are not the friends for me.
That's about it, thanks for reading my nonsensical venting and I hope you have a Merry Christmas!
~<3 Katia